I think about it every day. And feel it every day. My brain seems to be getting slower, I forget things more often, I’m growing ever more cynical and even interested in politics. Yes, getting older really does suck.

I’ve often heard people complain about how this and that body part hurts now from some sporting accident years ago, or the “I just don’t have the energy” anymore thing. I don’t have much sympathy for that kind of talk yet. But why didn’t anyone ever tell me that the older I got, the more I would realize how much things really do indeed suck in this world, which in turn makes you an unhappy person?

Getting old. Responsibilites, people to see, forms to fill out, taxes to pay, unecessary charges on a bill that you can’t seem to get out of, retarded leaders that make things more difficult for you directly, people that just want to make your life harder – where was all this crap when I was a kid? Was I just smarter then, and ignored it all?

Whatever it is, I feel even more retarded that I let the most inane things get to me. Like money things – paying people for nothing, for no reason, other than they have the power to ask it, and otherwise I don’t get something very important. Like the $5 “service charge” that was a $5 “thanks for visiting us” gift for them (and otherwise your form just won’t get put into that certain folder, which means something bad will happen to you later on). Or the way (since it’s pissing me off at the moment) airlines purposely rip you off because its a high season and they know that a lot of other people have to pay what they ask, since it’s thier vacation time. I constantly feel like everywhere someone is just there to rip you off. It’s like people don’t care to play fair anywhere. Ever been to a place where there are a lot of poorer people, and there are many people constantly trying to sell you something? It’s no different anywhere else in the world – just that in some places they wear nicer clothes, and want you to pay for much more expensive (and sometimes less tangible than that guy trying to wash your windshield).

Insurance companies, for example. Why can’t they just be exactly that, and not a well-your-car-was-stolen-after-10pm-so-it-doesn’t-count kind of fraudulent business? (Yes, that’s similar to an experience of mine). Why can’t your bank be just that, and not a let’s-nickel-and-dime-you-until-you-have-a-negative-balance-so-we-can-charge-you-a-$30-fee fraudulent institution? And credit cards – I don’t think I need to even talk about how they like to rape you with fees (even if you use them normally).

Getting old, like I said, sucks. Not allowed to play video games, you should be working, by god! Don’t enjoy yourself, you’re probably not making any money doing it! Don’t forget to renew your insurance, the state will charge you a thousand bucks! Don’t drive too fast! Eat less ice cream! Don’t play in the street (well, that’s nothing new)!

I don’t know why I’m so upset about it. I guess I thought things would get better as I got older, and it really just isn’t like that at all. What a crappy world.